Hello!!! I'm back!!! :)

After stuffing my face full of food for the past month, I have done lots of damage that I must now “repair”. After the competition, I went into a state of “gloominess” and my comfort was sweets and junk food! For about a month, I have been eating anywhere between 2,000 up to 4,000 cal a day! I’m now up to 131 lbs, NOT GOOD! Off-season weight, according to a good friend of mine, should be anywhere between 130 and 132 lbs…but the problem is, I gained the weight too fast and with not a whole lot of hard training. The goal was to gain my weight back slowly, eat clean and train real hard – work on my weak spots and add some muscle.

Monday, I started fresh! I’ve got my diet/workout programs in writing, and I’m ready to shed back down to 125 lbs! The whole “bulking” idea isn’t meant for me! *lol* I used it for an excuse to eat, eat, and eat! I have been very bad, and now I’m paying the price. A few competitors had “pre-warned” me about the “contest blues”, of where you mentally play a game with yourself and say “Well, I worked my butt off so hard, it’s time to reward myself, have another huge chocolate bar, muffin, bagel, bag of chips, etc.”…but honestly, there’s a fine line between rewarding yourself and being “unintelligent” and stuffing your face till you about cause yourself a stomach stroke! (If there’s such a thing! HA!)

I now officially weigh-in at 131 lbs (this is after a few days of clean eating), I now have to shed off 6 lbs of fat! Doesn’t sound like a lot you say? Well, how does a month and a half sound like? Sure, I could shed it off in about 3 weeks, but I’ve been dieting for so long, to slash my calories back down to 1400 cal a day, increase cardio to 4 to 5 sessions a week may not be the best thing for me to do at the moment…my body is still trying to adjust! Still no monthly visit….haven’t had my periods since the end of July! WOW! That’s almost 6 months ago…and NO I’m definitely not pregnant.

I’m still working on my cookbook, but I have been putting this program aside for the past two weeks since my Personalized Children’s Books business has kicked off for the Holiday Season and I have to say this is the best year I’ve had for my Online Web Store…it keeps getting better and better each year, I just need to hang on for a few more years before I see a lot more traffic and becomes more profitable…for the past two years, the profits have been strictly invested back into my business, no pocket money (except for a few occasions where I had to use my business for emergency purposes, daughter getting sick and having the pay for the doctor and medicine!). Shipping books everywhere in the USA is building my business up! Also, on the very last page of the books, there’s a list of “available titles” and my website address, so, I’m sure I’m getting some “word of mouth” advertising this way…Anyway, I don’t have a major in Marketing but my efforts thus far have proven effective. I’ve had a few bad investments but that’s ok, I learned from them, and it’s not like they were “risky” investments.

Ok, enough about “business” talk. *LOL* Running my little business is so much fun, but I’m sure “reading” about it can’t be as exciting as it is for me to write about it!

Anyway, still no pregnancy yet, and I’m starting to get a little anxious. I want to compete again, and I want to start soon! I don’t want it to be five years down the road, I want to compete again like yesterday!! *LOL*

I’ve got the motivation, determination and the discipline to do it….what I don’t have that is so important while competing is a great supporter “in your household”. I’ll be COMPLETELY OPEN and HONEST and NO, my husband will tolerate it but he’s not the best supporter……..he is supportive of me working out for good health, but he doesn’t want to see me take it to the next level (which to him, is EXTREME) and compete. ….. as for me, I’ve had this “competition” bug in my head before I even meet him!!! I just never really “voiced out” my desire to compete cause he always said that the girls were not “normal” and looked “horrible”. ...so I had a fear of him not loving me so, I just never told him for years…. NO MORE HIDING! Love for me what I am and WHAT I CAN ACCOMPLISH :) He can learn to deal with it! :)