Going to NY/CT today & Baby Pictures!

Hey guys!! I haven't posted in a while, partly because I'm LAZY but also because I’ve got a lot of stuff going that’s either got me worried or busy.

I unfortunately have to keep my update short as I’m at work. Tonight, I’ll be starting my travel up to Connecticut to see my father. His last chemo/radiation therapy is today, which he is absolutely thrilled about, he’s feeling very sick and is anxious to start feeling better. He is still working a couple of hours a day (against his doctor’s wishes), but he tells me he does so only because he can’t afford not to work, he needs to pay for his treatments, etc. Financially, he’s struggling, but he doesn’t have a lot of debt (no car payment, no house payment, no credit cards, etc.). I asked him yesterday if he remembered the commercial of the guy that said “I got a house, a home, a pool…want to know how I do it? I’m in DEBT up to my EYE BALLS!”…well Dad, that’s the life I’m living! He started laughing but he also completely understands, he’s been there before and unfortunately, he learned the hard way and lost everything….now, he can’t even have a credit card since his credit is horrible…BUT THAT’S GOOD! It always shocks me when someone tells me that they’ve accepted the fact that it’s the American Way to be in debt…..I use to think that way but not anymore! I want people to learn that it’s the AMERICAN WAY to live DEBT FREE! :-) I got a LONG way to go but baby steps will get me there.

Anyway, I’m really excited about visiting my father, and he is too…he’s just nervous about how Cassandra will react to him since she’s never meet him….she does talk to him every week on the phone and calls him “Daddy” *lol* I keep telling her that “he’ s my daddy” but then she gets really mad at me, and says “NO, HE”S MINE MOMMY!” It’s just too adorable!

I will also get to see my mother; she’s actually visiting us from Canada. She’s left this morning from Presque Isle Maine by bus and should arrive in Hartford later on tonight – she’s very anxious to see my daughter and mentioned to me that she will not leave her sight! I then proceeding to tell mom that she needed to be considerate of my father and “share” Cassandra with him. I also forewarned my father about my mother being very attached to Cassandra and may be a little selfish but he said that was totally OK with him, which made me feel a lot better.

On another note, I had an Ultrasound yesterday and I’m 14 weeks pregnant (which I thought I was 13)…my due date is now August 20th vs. Sept 6th. It also may be a BOY! We may have a Joshua Jr in our hands! I’m including baby pictures below!

p.s. I still have my moments of nausea and fatigue, however my real struggle now is getting back into a routine because lack of motivation and due to laziness.

Indication of a boy? Look at the picture on the right, focus on the middle

where you see a dash ( _ ) ....is that a wee wee?

Tired, Cranky and Feel Out of Touch.

Ok, I haven’t blogged in almost a month and part of it is because I feel like I have nothing to say or share with anyone…I can’t relate to anyone since I’m not following BFL, exercising or even eating right… I still feel tired but my energy level seems to be picking up. Perhaps I’ll be able to talk more about fitness and proper nutrition soon!

So far, I’m approximately 10 weeks pregnant and already gained 5 lbs. Why? Well, I eat every 2 ½ hours to keep the nausea at bay and it’s mainly carbs….oh did I mention I sleep a lot?! Sometimes I wonder if I’m having twins! Jzzzzzzz. Anyway, hopefully I’ll be able to regain control of myself…I just need a good kick in the ass! Estimated Due Date: September 6th.

I do have to mention about my father. He’s currently in this third week of chemo and radiation therapy. The doctor told him that he’s got about 80% chance of coming out of this… My father battled ulcers since the age of 20… the bacteria that caused him his ulcers also caused him his cancer. Approximately 3 years ago, my father started feeling worse and worse but still wouldn’t get checked, it took a “hernia” to send him to the hospital and that’s when they found his cancer. He seems to think that he had it for quite sometime (probably over 3 years)….he had it so bad that it went to his Lymph Nodes, which causes the cancer to be even more difficult to treat. Once the Lymph Nodes are affected, your cancer can spread anywhere in your body. On my father’s side of the family, thus far, Cancer is the ONLY killer….no one has yet to die from any other condition. Scary to think about! I’m actually going to visit him by the end of the month.

For those of you that are going to the Arnold Classic, Have Lots of FUN! Perhaps I’ll have better luck next year…….